Shoulda Gone To Bed

Had I gone to bed at 10 p.m. last night, I would have successfully completed 5 days in a row of on track behavior. Shouldadunit. Instead, as I considered a sweet over-indulgence, I activated the river image from my previous post and saw myself pinned against a rock. I was too tired to struggle. I yielded to the first temptation, then the second, third, and fourth. I’d have gone on to a fifth if Matt hadn’t been present. I’d reached the end of what I could allow him to witness of my self destructiveness and I was too tired to continue it after he’d gone away. Fatigue both triggered and ended the binge.

Today is a numerically auspicious day for me. I like the number 27, especially starting on a Tuesday which I consider an odd numbered day. I further like the way 27 is bordered by the same even number when you write out the date, 6/27/06. I know this is all foolishness, but . . .

I face today with renewed energy and am back on track.