Treading Water

Sometimes in these past couple of weeks I have felt so anchored in my own resolve that I absolutely KNEW that I'd never again get off course. Then a sleepless night drains my energy reserve and the anchor doesn't hold. I drift wherever the temptations take me. The good thing, the Absolutely Great Thing, is that this hasn't been turning into a full throttle torrent of maniacal binging. I've even managed to reverse course within a single day. My weight reflects this. I've had a small statistically insignificant weight loss which could be due to variations in the conditions of my weigh in and normal fluctuation.

One thing that has helped me is that I'm focusing on target dates for weigh-ins rather than looking towards a future date to once again begin again. All to often the dynamic of the "start over" has led to a raucous binge.

I've also started noting the ways that I've been helping myself to succeed. Eating breakfast at the dining table instead of the family room couch is one example. Taking my morning shower before breakfast is another. On Thursday, I was able to note the (approximately) five mile hike that I took with a friend. Today I'll put in some time on the elliptical just so that I can be able to record that I've done it. Otherwise, my tendency would be to avoid it "just for today" so that I could accomplish certain tasks.

Mama nature has mightily helped with some awesome Spring weather these week and half.
I've included some signs of spring photos in my other blog.

The Me photos above and below are Before pictures. Given that this extra large top and pair of pants fits me like a sausage casing, I think that I'll be able to wear these clothes even at my goal weight. They'll look a whole lot different on me then. And it will happen. I will make it happen.